you are so close to me.. is this weird?

Time... Slow down.. I don't want to fast track my life.. and i am so happy the way with all the things that it is now.. =) I felt like she came back today.. hugging me from behind.. while I'm doing my work.. it felt different.. like she is happy too.. the way things working out on me.. blessed.. maybe.. i called you a lot lately.. it just came out.. and i don't feel not right.. and you are here.. it's beautiful.. and the date is coming nearer.. and i have no intentions on slowing down or pacing faster to get to that state all over again.. i love you.. i wish i had said that more and you had heard it..