伤心太久是会伤身的

okay.. here i am.. blogging again.. when i actually aim to finish off my remarketing and remanagement of the historical arcade in two days.. so that i can fly off to sydney to celebrate birthday with my girl.. =( and i can't because i had little info to write on right now.. inspection tomorrow hopefully can help me in my flow of words.. god bless.. and so i can come and write off whatever is preoccupying my mind ALL DAY... again.. words fail me.. i can't seems to put it into words.. 零零碎碎的片刻。。 是折磨。。还是折腾。。我伤心。。他今天又会帮我整理我的行李。。又麻烦了。。更陌生的陌生人。。我不敢想象他在想什么。。因为我自己。。不该想的太多太多了。。我今天。。很努力地装我过得很好。。我毕竟真的很快乐。。可是他的那一块。。真的割得很深。。回忆是会渐渐淡去的。。我和自己说。。他都没有想什么。。拜托我醒醒别陷了。。爬出来很考毅力的。。伤心太久是会伤身的。。我。。还有很多很重要的人。。要去爱。。值得爱。。

high tea at Hilton for SuYi's 21st. i love the smile from the people i love. i love that you are truly happy and can share it with me. i love that i can share all my happiness around you. i love that you wouldn't left me.. i love that you don't run away from my attachment when i get lost.. i love that my madness and craziness don scare you away.. i love that you take time to understand me and don't judge.. i love that you are my save net.. my crying tree.. my garbage bin.. i thank you for hugging me when i need it most.. i thank you for just being here throughout all this time.. i thank you.. for letting me in.. my playmate, my eating buddy, my kbox companion... i am going to miss you like crazy.. i can call you all the time.. and no it wouldn't be the same.. our lives would be so different when you start working.. if that's a valid reason why people estranged.. you would be so far away..  i really really hate goodbyes.. and i have to do it so many times this year.. the good thing is.. at least.. this is not forever.. at least there is something to hold on to.. i love this year.. i have to remember.. this year has given me so much so much.. be myself alright.. be my rightful self..