you are just someone special.. that's all i know..

oh well.. so now a new decision.. probably not the best or even for the better but maybe it is good for now..

since i have the ability to forget what i want, what i did, so instead of the period i suffered most, which i already can't quite recall other than a blurry memory or maybe non-existant now.. i am gonna forget the night that i drank a lot and come home and do the thing that i wanted to. just the entire night. okay and those days. that's it. maybe it would be better? =) i am still a good person right. i don't even know whether we are still friends? or just someone you knew.
urgh.. forget it.. i just go and see what stupid thing did i said that night.. hahahaha only like two lines and yeah i left no room anymore.. i am just THAT ****** **.... i really really do a lot of things without bothering with consequences.. and yes i hate that i have to live with it now.. T_T why did i do this to myself? ohmigosh...... i don want to drink when i am very sad anymore...
:'( aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrghh


我想念那舒适的感觉
我做了让我以后不会遗憾的事
可能后悔
可是没有遗憾
我想念 真 真 真