it was a blank canvas.. and then..

you learn in this society, you don't and you can't always get what you want.

you have to fake a smile even when you are deeply hurt.

it is just that you have a ruler in your heart that whether this person or occasion is worth the effort. 

when you set yours lower, you get hurt easily.

people would take advantage of you. 

and you have to fake a smile to get through.

and act like no you ain't hurt or offended.

though deeply i just want to get away. run away. stay away. 

but running away isn't the way.

this is just how things is.

you learn to know yourself better

you learn to know your standards and boundaries

you build a wall to avoid getting hurt

you find ways to forget about the pain and betrayals

i find love and focus on them

i find happiness and immerse in them

all negatives are just rubbish when i have the overwhelming happiness

for now..

my power is only my attitude and my habit..

so finding the right thing to do.. the right people..

to strengthen my beliefs.. 

i love the people who are worth it. 

and i don't take you for granted.

because no one has the obligation to love anyone. 

my heart is still fragile.

but growing stronger. 

because of those i met.  

because of what i had been through.