you are smart, you are funny, you are real. at least to me this is more than enough.

there is a person
who can brighten up my day
every single moment
who can brings me up and down
using only his words at ease
and he is gone
not coming back
just like that
so i have to
find other means
to act like i am happy again
start by eating all the food i like
and this bring back 10% of the happiness
then i start going out with those friends i love
and this bring back another 10%
then i told my friend about you
i said i love all those places we went all those things we did all those words we said
and this bring back another 10%
then i start staying home to shut my mind
and watch movie and cuddle in my shell messing everything
and this bring back 10%
then i start listen to music
and this doesn't help
because every song i find a part of you
from cheerful to depressing to love to rock songs
then i start getting busy
with uni assignments and quizzes
and this bring back 10%
from taking my mind off from missing you to heartache
then i start fantasizing
everything would be okay
like soon
like now
like right now.
i miss you
like so much it's hard to bear
i miss you
because i used to think you treated me like something
i miss you
when i am totally free and point blank and when i am totally busy and slumped with work
i miss you
because i don't have to pretend and i don't care however you judge me
i miss you
because i love how we treated each other.
why is this not a something you want to keep.
why do you not care
when i love you so much.

maybe
i just don't deserve you
at all
not even a friendship
not even someone you met
someone you used to know