when would you stop lying. it's not gonna get better. B)

mummy just said i am not me.
in like five seconds she saw me.
and i know.
by that it means i am not the one who came back all freshened up and bright
all happy and smiling all the time
the one who can take good care and stand up for herself
the one who think she can do anything everything without worries
i know.

i feel bad too
defeated
and i thought it gonna get better
but it just doesn't
and the cure to the problem
is just out of reach.

B)
my new emoticons which means i am faking a smile when my heart actually aches so much inside.

i wish you miss me like i miss you
like me like i do
like you like i do
and want to talk to me like how much i want to talk to you.

it's getting worse when i know i wish for something i can't have.
i can't think.
it's hard to accept that
you won't keep in touch because you don't care.
i'm just being obsessive.
B)

seriously half the study period is gone and i have no time to be so in pain..
if it can't go the other way, please please please grow up.
learn. forget. grow.
just something.
time heals.
4 months should be enough!
GET ON MY FEET
GET MY HEART BACK
REMEMBER THE STRONGER HEART
and BEATS FOR ME MYSELF AND I
there just gotta be some way to the right answer..

seriously... stop stop stop circling...
driving myself crazy doesn't help.
wake up.. september me..