like a lunatic

it's just unbelievable.
you are like the food i ate.
like the friends i had\
like the air i breathed
like the way i love them so much
like the way they comes and go
but i have to keep telling myself
i can learn to live without.
like i can
like i will
like i can
like i know how to
because this is people
people
just finding the way around
to turn to bend to suck out
all the things i can do
why the hell i just can't go and say hi
assssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
days are like nights and like days

how do people

just forget 

and live on

i admire

because it is no easy task

the feelings

the bond

the ...

and it sucks

when i donno how to finish this sentence..

i want.........

:(

i gave out a piece of me

i freaking did

like never before

and it sucks

for the days now 

and i betrayed my heart

because that is what i really want to do

and it sucks sucks sucks sucks more

when i just dono what the fuck i am doing now

i hate you

for coming in

i hate you

for leaving out

i hate you 

for all the words you said

i hate you

for all the words you didn't say

i hate you

for all the things you did and not

i hate you

for everything

and i hate myself

for not regret in doing this

and let you swooping in and out

and all the bullshits my friend said 

how i can be in control of my emotions

and feelings

i hate that i don't hate you

not even a little bit

not even at all