New year resolution 2015

1. Get a job
2. Learn a skill
3. Get improvement every single day and blog it
4. No wasting time
5. Weekly budgeting
6. Go out and meet new people every week. Don talk to weird strangers
7. Exercise every day
8. Limit to two hours entertainment a day
9. Stay positive and believe in myself
10. I build my own life and write my own story. Be happy doing it.

http://youtu.be/aiaXotXOF7U

Leaving my favorite city

I am very very blessed to have met someone like you. Who had taught me so much that is beyond words. I am sorry to have thrown tantrums on you. So badly. You are still the closest one anyone had gotten me of. And yes I trust you in this department. It is the perks of being a friend, It is totally acceptable to not contact each other for prolonged period. But not mum. Even though the abuse is like on a daily basis. You were my closure. And yes. I am sorry I can't unload it on you. I would have fallen in you too much. It was pretty hard to bear this year but I am glad it turned out this way. I am twenty three. And I have to take control of my life. Had let it slipped and tumbled this year round, And my new year resolution is a daily growth. In knowledge, in career, in relationships, and in life. You are my super friend. And I look forward to the time we would ever meet again.
路是人走出来的
You made me forget about sad and depression. And reminded me to celebrate life. To use my ability to give, to love, to grow. And that I have the ability to have dreams and work towards them. And have more dreams and to be better. You are a great man. And would continue to be. I know it from the first time we met. XXOO

Totally know the reason I cried out why did you come back here. And moved away abruptly. Even though it hurts so much back then. Same country is pretty unbearable. Same city? It takes this long till we are finally on the same page. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. Because everything is simple. s I M P L e

Education and training

Self motivation:

Can you do it - behavior
Will it work - training
Is it worth it - consequences

Self motivated for worthwhile work
Feel competent
Choice, anatomy, self motivation
Controlled by consequences
Positive reinforcement
BecomebSuccess seeker and not failure avoidance

Whenever you get overwhelmed, break it down.
We can always learn from each other. Have the humility, it's community and we need each other.

Mindfulness - how you communicate to yourself is how to others

Community, social support, sense of relatedness

Empowering
Training and feedback

2014

Jan to Kk. Hx to miri.
Feb 3 to Singapore Adelaide.
March 18 to Perth.
April interview.
May mum to Perth.
June move out.
July at jacinta. Camp.

August till early Nov travel to Malaysia, Singapore, Brunei, KL, Hk, Macau, Taiwan, Albany, Melbourne, Adelaide, Monkey Mia, Perth.

很爱你 就幸福了

Even if it all started with admiration

Even if there are doubts that it may simply because you are unavailable

Even if it maybe because there are no one else I can shared so freely without care

Even though there are so many unspoken moments of silence

Because I love you

Because I don't know I love you this much

Because I don't know you

And I am so scared that I love you

Because it shouldn't be this hard

Because you weren't that out of boundaries

Because all these are excuses

That I simply don't think you love me

Because I had given my heart to you

Reckless and all so willingly

Even though I think that you needed time

And even when I had admired you so much 

Because it is impossible

For anyone to accept a broken heart 

Whom had refused to heal 

For a long long time

Because I am no ordinary girl

Because I don't have the assets that guys look for

Because I don't have the mindset tuned to the dating radar

Even though I had spent months doubting so

年过二十

早已不再是个孩子

却还是可以醉心爱人

心锁的钥匙越发牢固

或许是天真糜烂

曾经觉得你的存在会逼着我

所以我离开

我难过

我想你

曾经不明白

也不曾猜疑

为什么你回来

为什么你不一样

可是你铁朋友的性格

阻止我胡思乱想

我不懂

故事结尾了

寧願自己承受 也不願愛的人傷心

Mum knows. Mum always knows.

只是為了減少家人的悲傷

能夠認識你是我的福氣 畏懼你只因我越來越信任你 敢賴你是因為你的可靠大氣 離開就因為怕自己會深陷 無法接受自己買房壓力第一想傾訴的竟是你 生活就這樣 感恩 反正現在還說不說話也沒差了 祝願你一切順利啦

Even though he seems to be the perfect fit, stop being foolish he isn't yours.

我们的生命就是在影响别人

喜欢看书 喜欢听老人说话 喜欢聆听

喜欢自己做决定

喜欢坚持该坚持的信念

相信坚强的人

相信生活

慈悲喜捨

要记得自己信佛 

众生平等

旁观者清

礼佛

善缘

我不是任何人的追迶者

靜心

Business degree

As long as it is a bumpy road I know I am still moving forward

Cracking at pressure point

Don't know what I do this for 

Didn't get a prestigious uni or degree

When I totally able to 

Just blindly moving forward

Horror and amazement

麻痺 辜負青春

Woman

Can't find a bag that speaks me
Can't find one that I need
That says semi formal
Not too formal
And not too casual
It's only a bag
But i can't find one that match
Oh woman
Lola

Feel like I Don fit in anywhere

So it will be the same anyway 

It is always up to myself to make the most of it

Everywhere

I do care, but apparently you dont

Best thing you know to do
Be the person who knows it all and what is the best
And hurt someone all along the way
Be it the person hurting or the victim
We would all survive
Not everybody can understand the way I go for best friends
You can be a heated everything for one period of time
I don't mind because
I am just doing your time.

Dejavu

You should have told me not to hand you the knife to my heart but now you become an episode in my life. I miss you to core. A sign of machoism that you know what is the best to do. Fine. Go on. I can always ljve.

I am really lucky and happy that you are never an option. At least you made it clear to me that I am not ready to have another important soul into my life. To love, my infinity of life.

Writer

I expressed what is sinking me. Because it is a relief. And ease the weigh in my chest. Past has gone so there is no point dwelling. Be clear on the future and work towards the life that I want and live. Because feelings is a big trigger for a healthy happy life. Food, exercise and sleep.

I can feel my heart sink so deep

I have got many many regrets so profound for my univee times. I should have gone with my guts and my first instinct instead of listened to others. It's true to follow my inner voice instead of letting others to second guess me. 堅持自己的信念 不被旁人左右。housing is the most important thing I need. And I could have had a more stable backbone. Could have bought an apartment four years ago, or rented the student accommodation two years back. Two years of less than satisfying lifestyle had cost me a lot. Regrets not, I just want to be in control of my own life now, and chase back what I have lost. Work hard.

後悔藥

揪心
四年
當初
不負責
白痴選擇
謠言
I made a giant wrong investment mistake when I was nineteen. A wrong call for years after that. Ignorant. Worst mistake.
Now that I'm here, the place I knew I would be, in deep regrets and sadness, hating the possibility of what ifs. The world would be so different then.

就更加鐵了心 要相信自己判斷 不全聽旁人打算

我太愛我自己

也可能是不自覺地心深處的觸動吧
我相信你 相信自己
相信結果
日子開心最好最美最重要

Questions I wish to discuss with you but I have to do it by myself

Moving here. Buy house, buy in Melbourne or at home. Money.Car.
Oh well. I'm not that great a friend either.

Millions of things to work on my own.

What the heck right why I have to get over you dumbo

因為對我來說 在茫茫人海中找個知心朋友很不容易 還忘不了你 我就把心的一角割了  I don't understand why I need to get over a friendship. Aren't you already grown up? Maybe I'm the child. I have to call a stop because I have to stop hurting. I did my best under all circumstances. I am blaming everything on you to make myself feel better. You won't get hurt anyways. #caretoomuch #過客 不是我不懂人情 是你不懂人生。我諒解。我預想你的顧慮。我不值得你的溝通，我也就冷靜淡定吧。

I have pulled myself to new environment many times. I am resilient and independent. I am strong and amazing. You would become nothing. As long as I made up mind. Trust me. I have been through a lot. And ready for a lot more to come. It was an interesting page. I am done hurting myself.

Blog my safe heaven

我呢交朋友向來不敢太認真 不敢太用心 不敢太真 完全不敢依賴 完全沒有信心 無言哪 無言 飄走吧 #imissyou #blind Why do I have to get over a friendship I treasure so dearly? Why do you want to make it all meaningless encounters just like all others? #ithoughtyouknowbetter #youshouldknowbetter #youwouldsighatthis #youshouldknowbetter #mylifeisallaboutme
#Perth #night #friend #life I do take good care of myself

Go to the airport with a bank card and passport. But I have no destination. No where to go. Have you got this feeling?

賽跑

我的人生是我自己寫的
每一年要過的怎麼樣 是我自己定制的
我不會跟你賽跑
因為你先到達終點 我要花很大精力去消化
而我先到達終點 我會不捨得你去經歷那場痛
所以我幼稚 一直只想輕如鴻毛
什麼也不帶走 什麼也不留下
只是現在我想 能盡我所能 幫助及影響這個世界
今年姐姐須要我 我就飛來築個家
你是很美好的 我就肯定自己全心在祝福你時和你交心了
我是明白的 我決定去的地方是當下最好的選擇 未來能聚集的日子能有多少 誰知曉

The week I lost my mind and keep ramblings on and on

I usually don't talk about my problems. But when I find that all I have is problems, I think about it a lot. I should not. And should focus on the method I can still control in my life. And positive changes

#raw #haunting #numb

I love waking up in the morning. It means I am Alice. I get to choose what today is going to be like for me. What I want to do with my life. Who I let into my day. It is a good feeling. I am on the path of making everyday better. For me and everyone else.

Shit getting serious

不懂活著
不懂生活
不懂走的是什麼路
不懂害怕什麼
都來到門前卻因為有陌生人而止步
運動的時機就溜了
With all the pent up energy stored within
How to get a good night sleep tonight. 

最近每一晚都是煎熬

你有了個新名字 叫純黑色。#nofilter

可以了
自我保護模式啟動
:')

Life purpose. Target

This one person, feels like he doesn't know anything about me, yet feels like he knows everything. You set the standards too high now. And I would have to grow a lot more to the strength to be comfortable with myself and compatible to my partner. You made me a target. I knew it wasn't the best idea since the first time we spoke.

Different types of people

I feel very violated that you read my conversation and messages. This feeling didn't come on enough but I have learnt now and will now it to ever happen again. You were disrespectful. No one has ever been this impolite and immature and self indulged. You don't even deserve my time. I try to let you know and empower each other. Helping each other grow in this journey called life. I don't call it quit. I am a fighter. 

你呀你呀

不會哭
不願意哭
不習慣哭
不懂喊累
沒資格喊累
沒成績單

How would I find a stronger connection to someone other than you. I have my whole life to figure it out. After I got my life settled. You are a blessing. Forced and sped up my growth and standards. Thankful and appreciate. Every single thing.

I never started finding. Coz I am not even convinced that I am someone I can be yet. I just have to do my own thing. Love life as it is.

This is bad

I hate to hate myself for complaining. Because I know this is counter productive. I am making changes. I need to be more persistent. I have decided to take control of my life. I am mapping out what my next twenty years are going to look like. And job does not equal life. So heaven knows I am making progress in all the other million things in life.

You are a pig.

I'm so angry at you that I can't think of anything nice to say

I have given too much effort to let go of this friendship that it seems impossible.

Maybe it's time now. You ain't worth it..
你幹嘛那麼不夠文化

致命吸引力

Loving you is like a free fall.
It takes courage and confidence.
I am holding tight to the plank, against your energy force.
It is a stressful position and I dono how long can I keep still, getting ready to run away to the other direction.
Time and EQ. I am forcing an unavoidable growth.

搖搖搖

I hardly watch movies.
I don't follow a lot of dramas.
I don't know all the latest songs and fashion trends.
I don't want to do a lot of these alone.
Because I am aware that my choices would lead me to who I become.
And yes I would be nice and friendly. But you willl know it when I let you go into my heart.
It is still breakable. Because we are all vulnerable. To the changes around us.
莫忘初心。 情願一輩子當個好人。善良的人。 因為現在受傷了也要對自己有個交代。 要一輩子的開開心心。 不停不停的學習。

I am just this bit less fragile. And this bit less driving ppl away. And attracts a deeper connection. My circles is a treasure. Of the best people in life.

Now, I admit, my heart bleeds a little at the thought of you. I never want you here. Just like you never thought of having me there. I am still the stubborn black and white in this. It is exhausting but intoxicating. And you make me wonder, whom my next one will be like. Seriously, you made me brutally honest. I might have changed you in some ways but your influence on me is really supreme. Maturity? Maybe.

Keeping in touch with you keep me sane. I don't know. I am mostly intimidated and felt feared. It hurts to miss you. And it is now impossible to forget you. I need to be working to get over you. Keeping really busy and full living. Refuse to be any pathetic. Seriously are you like sane? I think in my short term view you are. +.+

Conscious mind. Be sensible.

I am pretty amazed by the internet and my stalking ability. But I know this is just temporary and doing this will only hurt myself for a while. My heart still stings a little every time I saw your name. I trying to numb myself. Just jump the leap. Even if it bleeds a little. It is the only way.

What life taught you.

I would rather have my life be falling apart and let myself pick it up again. Rather than having someone walk over my heart and left it broken there waiting for another trying to heal it. I will deal with it myself. Even when it seems impossible.

因為經過了苦難 所以更加的感激幸福

就這社會嘛自己得幫自己
可是可以觸碰多人的心
互相讓生活好過些

類似的人吧 就惺惺相惜
堅定 堅決 堅強

我只想要
安穩的生活 和 安全感

Oh man

She commented on my way of living

My actions and my choices

I am unhappy about it

I deal with it

I just want to solve it

And not ignore it

We have completely different line of thinking

So in matters where there is just no right or wrong

I can simply take a breath

Calm down 

Be quiet and think

Voice out my opinion later 

With a clear head 

After thinking it through.

There is a lot of awful people around. 

Girl you gotta be strong in your beliefs and faith. 

Don't let anyone taint your beautiful world. #faith #strength #innerpeace #growth

It is pretty hard not to compare. But i will try. He is pretty hard to surpass. But who knows. He just raised the standards. 

Mirror

I feel so crashed and tired
I just want to lean on anyone's shoulder
And feel comfortable and safe
Been to the side of lonesome and peace
Love it enjoy it dearly
But relationship ties people
Is like human nature
Somehow it is the one that would make life more worthwhile
Maybe
It is quite a different world
Don you just love over complicated
Eurgh simple simple simple it

寫字是種依賴

How to survive after an accident
How knowing you have the power of choices give you freedom
Why I choose not to watch movie - people picturing heroes but I pictured grief
Every single step I overcome is like a replay
傀儡
被狠狠拔走的簡單純粹
可能是我不怕死 就不願意讓人愛或擔心
在低潮時也很樂觀 因為只有一直變好的可能

我真的不會看電影
因為很多有印象的場景都太揪心
會一直重播
<<被偷走的那五年>>

又讓父母說了幾次
不要省那些該花的錢
買機票回家
買個新電腦
打電話回家
又念念自己賺錢很苦
省錢不旅行
忍啊忍 尊重敬仰
字字句句都讓自己頭疼

快樂就是要分享

散播快樂的種子
每個人不一樣
有人是厚實的肩膀
有人是快樂的飛鳥
我的生存法則
自然自然就好了
想太多沒啥用
每個人都不一樣嘛
不用硬逼自己改變
時間環境來了
人生觀世界觀愛情觀
也會跟著改變的
心會知道什麼是該堅持的
理性和感性是要並駕齊趨的

心

好久好久傷心時不懂喊痛
沒有改變不喊停
一直只是知道會過的
所以現在學會放下
學會原諒自己原諒別人
認識自己
是很大很大的幸福
還是會忽然有心很沉的感覺
可是因為走過
認識這感覺
就懂相信希望
改變核心問題
是心態 還是人為
能控制住自己的心
是件很舒服的事

男難

我不懂男生
不懂怎樣相信男生
You pretty much representing the males our age
花著很大的勁在忘記你是男生這件事
你卻一直一直要提醒我
因為生活本來就這樣
不懂一個人一直堅強好
還是被傷害後再重新恢復比較容易
那一段相信的時間 是一種奢侈吧
你的任務差不多是在重新建立我對人的信心吧
很偉大喔

只要不懂累 不會喊停
就可以再硬撐吧

情薄如紙
要先學會自己照顧自己
其他的 太複雜了

想了
也懂沒什麼好怕失去的
只是遇到我肯勇敢放開的
萬里尋他吧

超級感謝 你開了一點窗
讓我願意開朗一點吧

西方思想

其實我是明白的
為什麼如今又這種當下快樂的滿足
追求短暫的。幸福
我的。人生就是一直一直在學習在改變
現在覺得最適合自己對我人生觀
最舒服的。狀態吧
畢竟我也是最近才慢慢開始生活的
要快速追趕吧
反正也沒有什麼是永恆的

或許 this is my defense system that I shouldn't worry about. I am adapting into adulthood.

追夢

因為太怕死去的時候沒有享受到今生
所以沒有向未來追求

今生現在快樂了就是了

可是又重新有了目標
心境又換了
有點重生的感覺

我喜欢听安静的声音

真的升华了
一种非常微妙的感觉
说不清
超级的舒坦
开心
踏实

=）
找自己
做自己
真真棒

做人嘛 要对得起自己。什么没牺牲过，对自己好一点。你呀，有缘就十年后见 吧。

我答应自己 不要再受无谓的伤害

是真了 可又不可以较真 

这种危险的友谊

我不敢要

受过伤知道要多大劲才能愈合

虽然你值得着我冒险当朋友

我没勇气维持联络时不觉得自己不应该

太珍贵

我要不起了

放弃一个我珍惜的友情 为了自身的价值

心也不甘

可又有何耐呢

绝对不让任何人再在自己心上划上一刀

不理你不聯絡你 就是對我自己最起碼的尊重

三天後。。。

咋辦呢 我早已認定你當好朋友

要很久很久很深很深

我非常相信你的愛情 你的責任感 你對朋友的義氣

讓我放下城牆 知道你不會走開

你難道就不相信我嗎 <怒>

我在很認真的 過生活 你就不要如此討厭的一直提醒我長大 責任 未來 瘋呀瘋呀

你真的就是在破玻璃

理性過分強烈 保護心臟 好像有時也無效

High school drama

I know that I need to apologize for the actions I took words I said however long before as long as I have hurt people. Part of me still stubborn. I passed death and woke up feeling like I have no friends to count on. I had no numbers to call no letters to write. I woke up at a teenage thinking why am I still alive. I know I have to work through coz it is for my father,mother,brother and sisters. Days just gone by and now I know I just wanted to survive it. I thought all I did before that were wrong leading me to have noone to hold on to. Those were the days I pretended to be someone I am not. Made awful lots of mistakes didn't know anyone to trust or who would have listened. I din think I am the only one with problems so why burden others with mine. The less misfortune the better. I am not ready at that age, din think anyone would be. It made me very unhappy on the inside but tried hard to ignore it, not dealing with it. So I made mistakes, became a character that I vividly remember. I lived in my own world. I don't want to say sorry for speaking the truth and what I felt at that time. I remember this mistake clearly. Who am I to judge others when I was a wreck. One day I might feel sorry. But who says sorry to me for the one I lost, things I missed, happiness I feared when I needed it the most. I love people I am sorry I didn't know how and who to open up. I took wrong turns and left it behind. I blamed myself for everything and took me almost my whole life not to be consumed. I looked back and feel happy to have lived it. Though I still need the courage and strength to mend a scar that I can't heal alone. I appreciate everything and everyone, keeping it simple and happy. 都活著，不用留遺憾的。

Post travel. Being truthful to myself. I am super happy

http://m.dailytelegraph.com.au/travel/travel-advice/this-gen-y-aussie-reveals-how-to-cope-with-life-after-travel/story-fni0bfk1-1226878675439

Finally the time, the person and the connection. Super happy

http://www.medt.com/~brunerjs/siblingloss.html

毕业猖狂

我们毕业的意义都不一样
我了了我的心愿
我随心而走
我感恩我拥有的一切
我感谢我认识你当我的桥
让我对自己诚实
让我可以勇敢的面对封尘已久的伤痛
让我可以很真很真
勇敢多一点
不懂我为什么觉得这可能是会被伤害的事
我可以不要想太多
可以放心地不成熟
你的历练我恭畏
真是我的福气

我的生活 就是美美的 每天开开心心
未来不用烦 该来的就会来的
有梦有努力有追求
就已经是最大的幸福了

——猖狂的开心——

我不怕你說我胸無大志
我有大愛 大幸福
有夢 有追求 有快樂
平心而論 我很愛我的步調

Adrenaline surge

见了朋友

摸了动物

开了车

吃了辣椒

去过gym 坚持住 就是了

镜子里的我

如果有一天你醒来照镜子发现自己の种种不完美 最好解决之道是求有进步一点点

采取行动 改变 找自己最舒适的方式 最快乐的尝试 一点点不一样都会带来意想不到的享受

就像是一场沉寂已久的催眠中苏醒 不用慌 一点一点改 发现的很多 要 一个个坚持 变通 守护自己的原则 爱自己 一直前进

像一个杀人犯醒来发现自己滔天大罪无法原谅自己 要一点一点认识自己 救赎 弥补 

当一个感恩的人 谢谢身边所有一切

当一个孝顺的人 谢谢生养教育我的父母师长

当一个快乐的人 谢谢所有认识的亲朋好友 

当一个负责的人 承担所有应当的责任

当一个有上进心的人 不断的学习 锻炼 专研

有时间的青春 少一点年少轻狂 朴素些 谦虚些 温柔些

面对真实的自己 多一些。

I can't let you go. But I have to keep living somehow. 

She would want all of us to be happy, won't she.

There are still many of us around, it is a lot more than a lot of other people. 

One said one thought

I need to be happy so that my parents wouldn't worry.

I need to be upbeat so that my friends would love to be around.

I need to be confident so that my interviewer would believe my strength.

Is this way of life too rough too cowardly?

Because I wouldn't live it for myself, wouldn't want to be my true self.

Only see myself through how other can perceive I am.

Take action and gaining control. It's time,

To the person who everyone said i should steered away from

I thank you in advance.

I give myself a chance to face myself and hear myself truly.

That I want to be a better action, that I am able to hear my inner calling, that I am able to connect with others from the true and honest soul.

I am learning from many, at this age everyone has achieved growth in different aspects and achieved greatly in various stages,

I learnt to love myself more, at the last moment student life.

I learnt to do the things I say I am going to do.

I learn to speak less and take action.

I learn to not just plan and not having actual action done.

I learn to keep learning to continuously improve myself.

I learnt that I only need to have a clear direction of who I want to be, which is better than yesterday.

I know that taking action today would be one step forward and I would be proud of myself.

Goal check 2014:

Gym and pool

Learn about property industry

Learn about interview tips

Learn a language

Learn a music

Learn a culture

Learn a history

Time traveller's wife

I never wanted anything in my life that I couldn't stand losing

I took a leap and believe in you

I thought you would be different

It took me a long while to build that trust and courage to not afraid of being hurt

I wouldn't want to give up

But I couldn't act like I couldn't care less

I miss you deeply at this time

I haven't knew anything that can last forever

So I know I will be alright

It is just a shame

To have you as one of some important events in my life. 

I balanced alright

And this is just my way of treasuring and cherishing 

Someone I thought could last for a longer period in my present life.

I hate losing people 

Losing memories

Losing faith.

Maybe I still believe in love. I just haven't believe in lasting friendship. I don't know. Why would you be in anyone's life. Companionship is too much to ask. Your maturity scares me.

Adelaide 我满满的思念

他们说

离开一个地方

要带走一些东西

要留下一些什么

我最珍惜的

我遇见了

最让我温暖的

我留下了

每天要抱的米奇

每天要盖的熊熊

五彩温暖的棉被双人枕

穿了四年的睡袍

用了四年的杯碗瓢盆

毕业穿的高跟鞋

和所有东西一起

都要放下了吧

一直一直走呢人生

要每天都过得美滋滋 

开开心心

心墙

本来一直都是一个人好好的

你却不屈不挠

花时间精力闯进来

要了这个朋友

谢谢

我的个性 与独自在外的生活

时间推磨 各种经历

不经堵了一座高高的心墙

没有把握的事情我不敢说

没有未来的情谊我不会要

可是你让我眷恋

让我想鼓足勇气相信

你不会伤害我 

我会记得我说我讨厌你时的勇敢

我给你密码时的信任

我终于才在机场抱住你的不舍

谢谢你叫我不知所措

谢谢你出现让我一直一直成长

谢谢你深情爱着一个人的张力

我诚实地说你交朋友的方式让我却步

我承认我单纯地害怕你

我不懂交朋友

我失去过太多

能记得的东西却不多

回忆让我悲喜交加

再好的朋友不在一个城市也会渐行渐远

我们的生活会越来越没有交集

我会很想你

说多了也罢了 

我很珍惜你

我们惜字如金的情谊

不要断

可不可以不是奢望

Lost

I feel lost. there is this empty feeling. like nothing matters. nothing at all.
there is no attachment. it is like i can just be gone. just like this.
uni comes to an end. and this empty period is suffocating.
finding a job. there is a rush.

it becomes a restraint? maybe not.
i like the market and the people and what's not.
things change all the time. there are like millions of things always going on.
keep up keep up. twenty-three.
bugging me so much but i am really glad that you woke me up.
such harsh yet such gentle awakening.
i am gonna miss you deeply.
isn't this fun.
oh people.