beachhouse by james peterson

pictures will become photographs.We cannot choose where we come from but we can choose where we go from there.

i feel like i don deserve a rest. had been so down and defeated lately. achieved nothing. a vicious cycle. can't live like this. meaningless. it is so unfulfilling that i hate myself.

sometimes you have to congratulate me, for being happy today.

you learn to shut off things after it kept bothering you long enough.
it becomes a practice.
worries, shut off.
dark places, shut off.
useless tantrums, shut off.
resentment, shutoff.
basically anything negative and unproductive, shut off.
type it out, express it, shut off.
nobody cares of what you think and how you are, just do your things and shut off.

i try to tell myself, there is a lot of misfits, and don be too hard on yourself.
just be who you are, who you want to be, and you will be alright.
just to be sure of what you want and want to achieve. it is that simple.
nothing complicated.

things i hate

i am bad in presentation. i read through it and had my eyes glued to the paper.
i hate nightmares. insomnia in general. or even dreams. i felt like i had a long exercise through night.
i hate lies. or broken promises. i hate that people are not taking me seriously. i am looking at things to change the perspective people have on me. i want to earn people's respect. i have to add value to myself.
i hate i procrastinate. this bring myself down. i have got tonnes of things to do and i choose to ignore them. this is absolutely pulling me back. and i hate that i do it so often it takes away a big chuck of my time.
if i hate enough, i would start to make changes. it is simple steps. just have to get started.
regularity is good. it gives comfort and therapy. so i would have to go to bed at 12am every night and wake up in the morning. it would greatly enhance my sense of being.

我们算刚认识吗？

我讨厌你
这感觉越来越强烈
干扰着我
我对我们之间的关系
不明白不理解
简单的疙瘩
你我都没有对不起对方的时候
也没有过过节
也谈不上什么有记忆有映像的共同经验
一开始觉得我们很谈得来
过后我们开始害怕割了太多自己给对方
两人关系就是那么复杂吗
感觉的到大家开始有所保留了
女人的第六感
还有想太多的本能
反正都会过去的
没搬出来谁也不会放在心上
当朋友那么难哦
我还真不会
大家都有防心不能坦诚
这世间好累
不过啊
也很少有人有机会
就全心全意只想对你好
没有半丝私念吧
只是我呢
虽然害怕受伤害
可是真心给以帮助及协力
真那么简单
所以过后的琐事真的不想多想了
干嘛要把简单的事情情绪化
我就是趁有时间有力气让大家过得简单些
或许不见得真的对社会对任何人有帮助
可我还真什么都不图
就只想要个简单的
朋友
到底什么是对或不对
谁说了算
谁又会说
我扪心自问
是真的没有半丝歪念的
完全为了心理平衡吧
或许良心上怕自己有半点愧
反正到最后什么也不是
朋友都说不上
谁会理会这
亲
又放大了没用的想法
几时才能干些有建设性的东西啊？

半夜二点绕梁

 有时候 为对人性失望的
肯听不能所有事情都达到所希望的
可是一而再再而三二十年下来
找到问题点了就赶紧救救吧
自己都不会喜欢的
别人怎么会喜欢呢

How to be a quiet person：determination, self confidence, creativity

因为不喜欢吵吵的自己
 Google really has all the answer. and I just pop this question out after talking for two days. 

Are you tired of talking ALL the time? Some people just can't help it, but this article will give you a great start on how to: not just blurt out the first thing that comes to mind, not argue as much, and become at a state of mental peace.

Practice thinking about things before you even say them.
Never interrupt people.  Interrupting is just rude and gets on everyone's nerves. If you have something to say and someone else is talking, go ahead and think about what you want to say until the others are done talking. This is a good way to involve thinking things through in your every day life.

Get a good, time consuming hobby. A hobby will keep your mind occupied instead of your mouth. Some examples of perfect hobbies for this are: reading, drawing, and music. Any hobby will work, but it will only work if you keep your mind focused on it.

Ask someone else to explain their story before you give yours. That way you are maintaining a quiet persona and showing you have a polite and kind appeal

Release any pent-up energy you may have. Don't button yourself up all the time just because you're quiet. Get out and exercise to release your energy. Find places where you feel comfortable and do your favorite activities. Go for a run, walk your dog, write a song, or just relax and enjoy a movie. The point is to continue to be yourself and enjoy who you are on the inside, no matter how much you talk or how informative you are. This will help create balance in your life between the moments of keeping quiet and the moments of letting yourself be loud. If there is an imbalance, you can get angry, anxious, and irritated.

Use manners. Manners are an important way to help us stop and think about the context of our behavior. Think about whether or not being noisy is being considerate of others' needs. Places such as libraries, theaters, exam rooms, etc. are obvious places where we should keep our voices down. Think about other less obvious situations, such as a restaurant, when someone else is talking, in the car, etc. and see if you can be quieter than normal. When you use your manners, you show respect and benevolence to the other party.

Quiet people are seen as intellectual, informative, wise, and erudite. Take your time with your responses and think of something helpful or insightful that will contribute to the conversation in a positive way.

Do you know why you made the decision to be quiet and reserved? Many people are quiet for different reasons. One of the main ones would be to concentrate on their lives.

To be a quiet person doesn't necessarily mean you are lonely, or devoted to work or that you don't have many friends. It may just mean that you are a gentle person with a gentle spirit and a calm attitude to life.

Promote your quietness. Not in a way that you tell the world you are a quiet and reserved person, but in a way to ensure that people take you seriously.

Determine your level of reservation. Are you a quiet person who enjoys reading and writing? Are you a quiet person who is well organized and seems to make lists for everything?

Being quiet isn't a look but a choice. All that it means is that you may not want or like to be noticed.

Diaries are great to write what you feel and to put your thoughts into writing without expressing them to others.

Try to shorten the things you want to say.
Always have a smirk or closed-mouth smile, it makes you look more mysterious, as if you know something that they do not know.
Be serious.Do your homework, go to work on time, etc. Being more serious about stuff is good.

Stay quiet...don't talk at every opportunity.This shows people you know when to talk and when you do, you have something important to say. Don't stop talking altogether though.

Wear deep purples, black, deep reds, forest greens, anything with a dark flair. Pair your outfit with feminine things like long vintage necklaces, beaded black and purple earrings. Wear shorter skirts with fishnet stockings and colored tights. This is a really cool look.

向前迈进：对自己的精神喊话

有些记忆和印象 是怎么也抹不掉的 

所以要尽力保护自己 知识财产 别轻易丢了

人是自私的 会拉你一把的人真的不多 

遇到了就是贵人 很感激 要有所表示

批评的人是会有的 可除了化为动力

千万别变成抗拒前进的阻碍

因为太不值得了

了解自己 挑战自己

每样事都可以解决的

只要有了开始 就难得那一步已经过了

坚持下去 不被干扰 就能成事了

专心 有条理 就能达成目标了。

没有人会为你负责的 也不会有另外一人在乎你的进步

只有你 只能靠自己 作了选择 就敞开心胸开始作下去

路 是自己的。 

旅行‧電影‧愛音樂

【李敖的七段話】

1、氣質是你一生最好的名牌。一個人若有氣質，遠比穿一身名牌更美，更受人肯定。想擁有氣質你甚至不必花一毛錢，只需注意自己的脾氣、端正自己的品格、淨化自己的思想、充實自己的內在，無形之中，你的談吐、態度、舉止都會烙印上一股清新而脫俗的標籤。

2、不要過分在乎身邊的人，也不要刻意去在意他人的事。在這世上，總會有人讓你悲傷、讓你嫉妒、讓你咬牙切齒。並不是他們有多壞，而是因為你很在乎。所以想心安，首先就要不在乎。你對事不在乎，它就傷害不到你；你對人不在乎，他就不會令你生氣。在乎了，你就已經輸了。什麼都不在乎的人，才是無敵的。

3、活得糊塗的人，容易幸福；活得清醒的人，容易煩惱。這是因為，清醒的人看得太真切，一較真，生活中便煩惱遍地；而糊塗的人，計較得少，雖然活得簡單粗糙，卻因此覓得了人生的大滋味。

4、欲成大器，先要大氣。大氣之人，語氣不驚不懼，性格不驕不躁，氣勢不張不揚，舉止不猥不瑣，靜得優雅，動得從容，行得灑脫。大氣之人，能安安心心做好本分的角色，認認真真干好手頭的事情，不為名利而爭鬥，不為錢財而糾結。大氣之人能讓自己的世界海闊天空，即便一時失意，終得大器晚成。

5、人生的忠告：再長的路，一步步也能走完；再短的路，不邁開雙腳也無法到達。不要讓太多的昨天佔據你的今天。重複別人走過的路，是因為忽視了自己的雙腳。貪婪是最真實的貧窮，滿足是最真實的財富。經受過嚴寒的人，才知道太陽的溫暖；飽嚐人生艱辛的人，才懂得生命的可貴。

6、*放下*你的浮躁，*放下*你的懶惰，*放下*你的三分鐘熱度，*放空*你禁不住誘惑的大腦，*放開*你容易被任何事物吸引的眼睛，*放淡*你什麼都想聊兩句八卦的嘴巴，靜下心來好好做你該做的事，如果你也覺得自己該努力了的話。

7、愛人是路，朋友是樹，人生只有一條路，一條路上多些棵樹。有錢的時候別迷路，缺錢的時候靠靠樹，幸福的時候莫忘路，休息的時候澆澆樹。