Just be Twenty-three

Is it just me but it feels like you know the answer to everything?
Is it just me but it feels safe and warm around you?
Is it just me but it feels okay to confide anything with you?
Why is there such a pull to trust so much in you, even when my head says no.
Why is there such a button that switched on and off all the time around you, even till my heart feel so.
I don't know what is this. I really don't.
I need you. You come by at a really good time.
I don't know what to do.
To suppress or embrace.
To accept or let go.
But I know you are someone I treasure.
Because you are true.
At least I feel so.

I feel shaken by the lost of a high school friend and your face just float up to my mind.
That I wish to run to you and just want to hear what you have to say.
But I suppress it. Because I feel like I needed you. I know I can do it myself.
This time I dealt with it. I acknowledged it. I get past it.
I know it is hard to accept an early death. Being gone so young.
A lot of times and attitude of life to be reflected upon.
Have I done enough. Have I helped enough people.
Have I shared my experience and love around.
I know about  coping mechanism. I know everyone can do it differently.
There is no easy way out. But it could be better, with someone to talk to.
Reach out. People do care. These words are so important but it's funny how is not being said enough.
Love deeply, compassionately. Do everything you can to give help and create goodness.

Sassy

Super duper happy.
So in love.
I=

BLUEKKKK

I'm grateful that he is doing this too now..
I'm so weird..

Loving you was never my intention
Kinda sad Kinda happy..
This is absurd..
Whahahhahahaha
I don't even know what I want now..

Be true

I need to stop caring for the other one thinking I'm not ready. I need not be afraid the fall. I need to stop denying my feelings.

Wanna hear your beating heart tonight

Before the bleeding sun comes alive

I want to make the best of what is left, hold tight

And hear my beating heart one last time

Before daylight

I've fallen from grace

Took a blow to my face

I've loved and I've lost

I've loved and I've lost

Explosions.. on the day you wake up 

Needing somebody and you've learned

It's okay to be afraid

But it will never be the same

It will never be the same

Late night watching television

But how we get in this position?

It's way too soon, I know this isn't love

But I need to tell you something

I really really really really really really like you

And I want you, do you want me, do you want me, too?

I really really really really really really like you

And I want you, do you want me, do you want me, too?

Cause and effect

It's amazing living a grateful life.

-5 Aussie job
-5 Singapore job
-5 PM questions
-5 essential posts
-5000 steps

15/05/2015 the date I got myself back. 

自爱自爱自爱自爱

你用我们炼成铁的感情把我的心杀了
不断的告诉自己
别为了你的错惩罚自己
别因为你的错不原谅自己
别幻想 别爱 别恨
别记起 别忘记
怪天意弄人
怪自以为是
怪你我不勇敢
言语利器伤人
沉默可杀死人

我把他存的档案删了
我把他的脸书删了
我把他的照片删了
删 了
行动先做了
心你快点跟上吧
爱和痴就一线之差
别犯贱
他这个样是在做大烂事
已经不值得再挂念些什么了

我用一年换了一个星期

他的时间结束了

Be busy be good.

Remember. He is only part of a distant memory.
I'm myself. I'm responsible for myself. I can take care of myself. I'm taking back my life. Times wait for no one. Be the person I want to be. Be strong. Believe in myself.

Dreamt about a man suicide last night. Too harsh too wakening.

A sign of growth. Probably a good thing.