Shit getting serious

不懂活著
不懂生活
不懂走的是什麼路
不懂害怕什麼
都來到門前卻因為有陌生人而止步
運動的時機就溜了
With all the pent up energy stored within
How to get a good night sleep tonight. 

最近每一晚都是煎熬

你有了個新名字 叫純黑色。#nofilter

可以了
自我保護模式啟動
:')

Life purpose. Target

This one person, feels like he doesn't know anything about me, yet feels like he knows everything. You set the standards too high now. And I would have to grow a lot more to the strength to be comfortable with myself and compatible to my partner. You made me a target. I knew it wasn't the best idea since the first time we spoke.

Different types of people

I feel very violated that you read my conversation and messages. This feeling didn't come on enough but I have learnt now and will now it to ever happen again. You were disrespectful. No one has ever been this impolite and immature and self indulged. You don't even deserve my time. I try to let you know and empower each other. Helping each other grow in this journey called life. I don't call it quit. I am a fighter. 

你呀你呀

不會哭
不願意哭
不習慣哭
不懂喊累
沒資格喊累
沒成績單

How would I find a stronger connection to someone other than you. I have my whole life to figure it out. After I got my life settled. You are a blessing. Forced and sped up my growth and standards. Thankful and appreciate. Every single thing.

I never started finding. Coz I am not even convinced that I am someone I can be yet. I just have to do my own thing. Love life as it is.

This is bad

I hate to hate myself for complaining. Because I know this is counter productive. I am making changes. I need to be more persistent. I have decided to take control of my life. I am mapping out what my next twenty years are going to look like. And job does not equal life. So heaven knows I am making progress in all the other million things in life.

You are a pig.

I'm so angry at you that I can't think of anything nice to say

I have given too much effort to let go of this friendship that it seems impossible.

Maybe it's time now. You ain't worth it..
你幹嘛那麼不夠文化

致命吸引力

Loving you is like a free fall.
It takes courage and confidence.
I am holding tight to the plank, against your energy force.
It is a stressful position and I dono how long can I keep still, getting ready to run away to the other direction.
Time and EQ. I am forcing an unavoidable growth.

搖搖搖

I hardly watch movies.
I don't follow a lot of dramas.
I don't know all the latest songs and fashion trends.
I don't want to do a lot of these alone.
Because I am aware that my choices would lead me to who I become.
And yes I would be nice and friendly. But you willl know it when I let you go into my heart.
It is still breakable. Because we are all vulnerable. To the changes around us.
莫忘初心。 情願一輩子當個好人。善良的人。 因為現在受傷了也要對自己有個交代。 要一輩子的開開心心。 不停不停的學習。

I am just this bit less fragile. And this bit less driving ppl away. And attracts a deeper connection. My circles is a treasure. Of the best people in life.

Now, I admit, my heart bleeds a little at the thought of you. I never want you here. Just like you never thought of having me there. I am still the stubborn black and white in this. It is exhausting but intoxicating. And you make me wonder, whom my next one will be like. Seriously, you made me brutally honest. I might have changed you in some ways but your influence on me is really supreme. Maturity? Maybe.

Keeping in touch with you keep me sane. I don't know. I am mostly intimidated and felt feared. It hurts to miss you. And it is now impossible to forget you. I need to be working to get over you. Keeping really busy and full living. Refuse to be any pathetic. Seriously are you like sane? I think in my short term view you are. +.+

Conscious mind. Be sensible.

I am pretty amazed by the internet and my stalking ability. But I know this is just temporary and doing this will only hurt myself for a while. My heart still stings a little every time I saw your name. I trying to numb myself. Just jump the leap. Even if it bleeds a little. It is the only way.

What life taught you.

I would rather have my life be falling apart and let myself pick it up again. Rather than having someone walk over my heart and left it broken there waiting for another trying to heal it. I will deal with it myself. Even when it seems impossible.

因為經過了苦難 所以更加的感激幸福

就這社會嘛自己得幫自己
可是可以觸碰多人的心
互相讓生活好過些

類似的人吧 就惺惺相惜
堅定 堅決 堅強

我只想要
安穩的生活 和 安全感

Oh man

She commented on my way of living

My actions and my choices

I am unhappy about it

I deal with it

I just want to solve it

And not ignore it

We have completely different line of thinking

So in matters where there is just no right or wrong

I can simply take a breath

Calm down 

Be quiet and think

Voice out my opinion later 

With a clear head 

After thinking it through.

There is a lot of awful people around. 

Girl you gotta be strong in your beliefs and faith. 

Don't let anyone taint your beautiful world. #faith #strength #innerpeace #growth

It is pretty hard not to compare. But i will try. He is pretty hard to surpass. But who knows. He just raised the standards. 

Mirror

I feel so crashed and tired
I just want to lean on anyone's shoulder
And feel comfortable and safe
Been to the side of lonesome and peace
Love it enjoy it dearly
But relationship ties people
Is like human nature
Somehow it is the one that would make life more worthwhile
Maybe
It is quite a different world
Don you just love over complicated
Eurgh simple simple simple it