双重心理吗？

爱你把我的心填地满满的

让我一点也不孤单

当石头重重地压着心脏不能呼吸时
i wish i have the power to switch the dark part off and
focus on all the important happy things that i have.
难过好伤身哦。。

因为伤心也是一天， 开心也是一天， 别浪费生命， 在无谓的事务上。
千千万万的繁杂小事，都会是过眼云烟的。

Timetable

Build a schedule and follow it.
One thing at a time.
It is this simple.
Don't complicate life and everything can fall in place.
Right time right thing.
It is simple.
=)
i can do it.
follow the steps.
knowing the direction and the steps.
all others would get on track.
in time.
remember
love life.

Holding on. because I'm like this.. get used to the rhythm of life, i'll be alright.

cry it all out.

things wouldn't get done by itself.
take action to do it.
make progress.

yes i cried it out tonight..
after talking to mummy..
it felt good..
really good..
i miss home..
homesick like never before..
like i just want to go home.
but i also know that going back there and lose the focus in life isn't really what i want.
i need the focus i have now.. all these work i am doing.. responsibility that i'm taking..
don get distracted with the imperfections..
roll on.. life is like this..
just get on..
=)
with a smile
true from the heart.

fill the core

there is just so much under the covers
covers of lies
covers of smiles
covers of laughs
loves and regrets
hugs and kisses
hearts and misses
deep down in the core
there is just emptiness
nothing
until you fill it in.
life always always roll
things you want would always be more and more
though the most important
is actually at the heart

fulfill the core
true happiness
comes from within
fill with love
my family.
my career.
mine.
my friends
my relationships
my assets
my belongings
mine.

trouble and negatives comes along.
because for every up there is a down.
remember to hold on. to get through.
because there is a rainbow after the storm.
 

Homesick

i just feel very very messed up.
in this room again.
with all the dust floating around in the air.
save myself.
when you have a will
you will get what you want.

i want to go home.
hate that when i am free and desperate for family attention
is the time when noone is free

i feel so lonely tonight
like my world stops.
like nothing is important.
i want to be happy.
i know that.
even though
the past bring memories that couldn't be relived
the future bring uncertainty that can scare the hell out of me
the present with so much pending work and decisions is messing up my brain
the goal this year is ORGANIZED
be organized with the tasks

the thoughts
the dreams
the documents
the hard and soft copy
the heart
the brain
one step at a time
ALWAYS.
small and simple makes progress.

don't think. don't don't think.
just roll with the punches in life. in my brain. in my heart.
i can take care of myself.
been there done that.
it is part of growing up.
i can survive so many heartbreaking moments
of course i can get through this lonely night..
hold on to the thought.
only one thing at a time.
don't overdo. don't overthink.
keep the brain working. keep the things coming.
believe i can do it.
i will do it.
i do it.