Crazy Lady

Honestly it still stung my heart when I browsed a little bit of my writing back then. So I had an older blog similar to this musings too about another guy. Another one when I was younger yet about another guy. Because it is embarassing to read them and they are up to no good anyway. Writing those out is really a short term release to free my mind but working my brain on these doesn't really bring any good.

We all are learning and finding ways to treat our heart and be more passionate in life. Maybe I still need to fix myself. Maybe I have a long long route to go. I know that I am good enough. Just the right guy is still stuck in the forest somewhere on the mountains or underwater. To complement my current life better and face all these nonsense in life together.

Therapeutic writing

I'm not gonna lie. I kinda enjoy writing out all my thoughts and woes. It calms me. It frees my mind that somehow this is an outlet. I know that it might not fix anything or like probably spreading negativity in this blogasphere but this is a place that I can rant all I want and don't worry about you getting impatient and judging me as a grumbling Gen Y.

Do we all want to be successful in life? Maybe. Just everyone has a different vision of success. Coming along my life I guess I have been taken care of by amazing parents and lived a good life until I reach the roughy patch of adulting. I know everyone is unique and is the owner of our life decisions and fates but I still categorize myself as the young adults who is ready to face the everchanging world with visions and missions.

I mean, my education and background have prepared me well to evolve with times and bring development to the town that I grew up in. I believe myself to have the ability to transform little by little our lifestyle choices and education exposure. Putting much thoughts into my work and reflecting from time to time will bring my team together in time and we all work towards the better goods of my hometown people. If you don't grow you fall.

Last but not least, I am grateful for all the opportunities that I am given and all the people that I have met. It has been an amazing ride this whole time and even though there are ups and downs, I am always thankful for being waking up in the comfort of my family, going to work everyday and affecting people positively whenever we can.

We are who we think we are. Love life. And create one that you don't need to escape from. Holidays are considered as boosters though.

Travel bug

2017 flew past really quickly and there is only 3 months left on the calendar. So, travel bug is biting me and I long for a long holiday to retreat and takes my mind off work. I had been working the extra hours during public holidays and weekends and this life isn't what I have pictured few years ago when I was studying in uni. I haven't put much thought into it I guess and this is where I ended up. Still early into my career life so there is still a long route but I am focusing on living a life that leads to a purpose and have some balance in work and social.

Being back in my hometown and facing new challenges everyday can be kinda mind blowing and overwhelming. I don't mind going the extra miles during my youthful years though to reach somewhere I want to be in the near future. I am glad that things are working out and we are on the path to solving every challenge that comes my way.

I don't know how this turned into an entrepreneurship musings but what I wanted to rant on is my dear dear wish of going on a retreat or travel for leisure trip aboard. Maybe it's the work eating up the brain power that I have I have no ideas or urge where my destination is. Looking at the travel agency or travel bloggers doesn't push my buttons and I am out of ideas on how to fix this. Just go somewhere?

I hate to waste my time spending my off days at home staring at the tv box or just letting my time flies off without really getting a full rest. So I need a plan. That can open my eyes and be passionate about living the working life again. Where should I go?

Reflections

Do you know the feelings by the end of the night

That you wish you had done that little thing differently

Or had not said that stupid little thing this afternoon 

Honestly nothing more could be done 

It is a little glitch that can't really do any harm 

Nothing would have change or being affected by these small regrets

Other than an uneasy feeling or grudge that could just hurt you for stressing you out

Learn to let go

For the time rolls at three thousand six hundred ticks an hour 

Nothing is really that important if it was just a petty comment in a casual convo

Thousands of things are left to be done 

And when you really set a to do list or priority list

You need a system to regulate your concentration 

Allocate time to all these important thing every day 

And you can go far

Take care of yourself 

Because no one else can do it better

Health

Passion

Relationship 

Family

Wealth 

深夜睡不着

我想你 闯入我平平淡淡的生命里

我需要你 介入我枯躁烦闷的生活里

点缀我的生活 滋润我的心灵

我不再需要 一日复一日的

De-stress

Your health is the most direct way you body tells you you have been stressing out or overloading yourself. Life have been good all this while getting things done and feeling like you are in charge. Just like two sides to every coin though, this comes with higher level of stress and voices from all sides which try to deter you from your dreams. Honestly, I do what I do because I believe that it is going somewhere, and it is already a huge step everyday.

Waking up dealing with the never-ending problems is a path that I have picked and enjoy doing. I would rather have the autonomy in deciding the result that I can work towards and make it happen. It is not easy and there will be mistakes along the way but it is through this learning which motivates me to continue. Problem only exists to be solved, and every decision made leads to a better result. There are so much to learn, and so many things that I can do. It is something beautiful that I want to share with my closed ones, and we all have the same future to look forward to.

Chinese New Year has just passed and my culture brings me to go to temples to thank for all the goodness that I have been blessed with for the past year, and pray for a better living in the coming year. Sweet thing this year is that my family traveled to Thailand for a getaway, There is this Phra Phrom, four-faced Buddha for disciple to worship. The four sides are:

Front view: Business and wealth

Left view: Wisdom

Back view: Health

Right view: Relationship and interpersonal

People make prayers around the statue and enlightened me how these are some of the basic wishes that we all have and yearn for. It was a chilling trip as we stayed in the Bloom, a garden up in the hilly areas, with flowery gardens and a grapevine just next door. There is just too much transfer time from one point to another that I felt like we were on the bus 80% of the trip. I would have to go to only Bangkok next time if I am to go and make it a shopping trip.

Coming back to my health, I just went to a clinic for some vaccine injections. Ta-da, I'm overweight again. Stress adds pounds to me. Perhaps I don't have a right mechanism to deal with stress. It's like an invisible killer and I don't know that I am getting burned out day-in day-out. There are so many challenges that I feel like I think I am handling well but my body is telling me otherwise. It is just a simple body-check routine before the injection but I know that I have to put my health as my priority before anything else. I try to make a list for things I need to do all the time. It helps, but I have a list in the back of my mind for things like writing a travel blog, photo-book all my travels, connecting with my old peers, have some reading habits... the list goes on and I have to make time for these. 

Sometimes this not-so-important things are the in fact important as these are what makes me happy. I mean, I am all for living a happy life and doing things you want and work towards goals. I realised that I haven't sat down and stop thinking about non-work related issues. Everything just have links to ways or ideas of improving the business. I believe entrepreneurship is the way I working towards, but I need to work on my mindset that my life should not only be about this. Closure? There has to be a way. I mean I have to overcome the inside me that want to get everything done good, fast and efficient. It takes a village. 

My wish for the year:

Health

Happiness

Love

Success ^^